Confusion

I need a decision, I'm just so confused
I know it's all my fault, but I was also seduced
By the beauty and trust, the habit,
I'm lost in your eyes, in your smile, for a while

I need to escape before I fall down
I'm playing the game, my face wears a frown
I'm lying to both of you,
just to get close to you and not to be alone

Why is it me? I'm to blind to see

I need to be careful when you're here with me
I'm cleaning the traces, so that he couldn't see
If two hours ago
Someone was drinking my wine and then he had to go

I need a relief, my conscience can't sleep
I'm looking for changes, but the feelings are too deep
I'm knowing that noone of you
Could make me happy at all, so you're staying a doll

How can I get something I don't regret?

I'm too afraid to give it up that day
I fear that noone else is gonna cross my way
Still I don't know what's right for me
And then I see that you love and it's gonna be
Okay, it's gonna be okay

No more confusion, I just need a friend
Will you forgive me, is this the end?
And I look around
And noone is there, I have lost what I had found.